The struggle is real (part 2)

Last night after returning from insanity my phone was going wild... The struggle just got harder, Krispy Kreme are only ruddy well opening a stall in the Derby Westfield or Intu as it's called now! Great. If my retail therapy addition wasn't enough reason to avoid town, this now is!

All night I dreamt about Reese's doughnuts. To make matters worse, when the bed thief (Olly) woke up this morning he wanted the TV on in our room! Of course like any awkward child would, he wanted to watch something that wasn't on any of the available channels so I flicked through the sky plus. Between trying to find an episode of  Wally bloody Kazam and attend to a now woken and starving baby, the 2014 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show ended up on! KILL ME NOW!!!! I know I'm too late for #WCW (Woman Crush Wednesday) Major girl crush/body & face envy all round. These girls are hot Momma's!  And I can say that with reason as some of them ARE mums! Bet they're the Queen MILF's on their kids playgrounds!!!! LOLZ!!

So part 2 of my struggle. Food. I love food. I think about what I'm going to have for my next meal before I've finished the one I'm eating. (Head in hands)

Last year I was going to Ibiza for one of my best friends hen weekend, I didn't want to be the "fat friend" I wanted to wear a bikini, feel confident enough to do so  and not have to rely on alcohol! My husband did me a plan (it's part of his job) and from January-May I lost what I wanted, coincidently bought myself  a Victoria Secrets bikini and partied hard at the Ocean Beach Club Champagne Spray opening party!

I gained a staggering 3.5 stone whilst pregnant with Nancy. The scary part is I lost weight in the first 20 weeks cause I was is ill, you couldn't even tell I was pregnant until 22 weeks. But the next 18+3 made up for it. She was a 9lb baby born! Between having her, breast feeding and relatively healthy eating I managed to shift 1.5 stone before having a break down.

My husband, ever the romantic, did what I had to do! Having no experience with breast feeding and dietary requirements, he got me a nutritionist! Who said romance was dead?!?  I gest.... It really was the best present he could have got me!

I had my appointment with Sarah Duffield from MacNutrition they're kind of a big deal in their field of work. Sarah has set me a plan which allows me to lose weight yet maintain the calories I need to keep breast feeding Noodles! So far I'm 13lbs down. The last 2 weeks I have fallen off the plan wagon but as of this week I am back on it!!!!!

Now I'm going to try and avoid depressing weight posts from now, they'll lose me readers for sure!!! I will however keep you mildly posted on my progress and IF it's a massive IF I get the confidence, I'll post some before and after shots!